Posting Just to Say I Posted

I think I was too embarrassed to post yesterday. Only three days in and I fell off the eating and exercising wagon big time. I didn’t exercise and I binged like crazy. Today hasn’t been much better. I still may go work out when Linda gets home. Seems like there is so much I want and need to do that I just can’t really get going on anything. I told myself I was going to post here everyday, that I was going to exercise everyday, but it seems that by doing that I just set myself up for failure. And the more I focus on eating sensibly the greater the urge to binge. It’s as if a part of me keeps telling myself that I don’t deserve to be healthy, that I don’t deserve to succeed. That I can’t do it. Not just with diet and exercise, but with life in general. I beat myself up and I’m my own worst enemy. Plus there never seems to be enough time to do all the things I need to, but instead of just doing some of them I put off doing everything. Conflicting priorities and the inability to prioritize and stick with it. This is a pretty rambling post, but at least I posted. I did something I started out to do today.